2017!!!!!
Tuesday, January 24, 2017 @ 3:00 PM
Hi!!!!!
Macam biasa, it has been a while. Haha! Tiba tiba setahun sekali je update blog. I used to blog like 4 entries in one day kot LOL rindu zaman zaman takda life and all I had was my blog. Masatu pra-matang siot, balik balik sekolah je khusyuk menaip. Pastu tension kenapa spek makin lama makin tebal. Taktahu lah takda life ke takda kawan to talk to, (loner LOL).
Now, life is different.
Aku suka baca previous entries to see how my life was before. Macam-macam gaya betul. Rempit! Tapi I laughed going through everything. Memories, I didn't regret any of it. Walaupun memang duk facepalm and countlessly tanya diri sendiri apsal ko macamtu?? Sape ajar ko?????? :')
Plus dulu mungkin jugak sebab aku macam tak berapa rapat dengan kakak aku to berceloteh dekat dia sebab dulu aku macam rasa jarak umur kitorang penghalang untuk kitorang rapat. Ceh nampak sangat pemikiran pun memang budak gila. Bagi aku masatu macam ok dia dah besar so dia ada kawan kawan besar dia. Aku rasa macam tak in lah nak cerita dekat dia pape. Tapi hubungan kitorang dulu sampai sekarang maintain je. Cuma dulu kurang bercerita.
Sekarang lain.
Balik sekolah, benda yang macam tak payah cerita pun aku cerita. Konon konon sebab dua dua dah besar. Jarak umur dah tak jadi penghalang lagi (padahal jarak umur still sama) tapi sebab aku rasa aku pun dah besar kot (LOL) (if you get me), aku dah tak rasa seperti seorang kanak kanak lagi. Kadang kadang kakak aku punya respond terhadap cerita aku,
"Tu je nak cerita? Tak menarik langsung"
Tapi tulah dia. Sebab tu kot aku dah tak berblog. Aku ada peneman untuk dengar cerita aku walaupun respond dia selalunya macam neraka. Haha. Selain tu kalau dia busy, aku voicenote lah kengkawan aku panjang panjang (thank you Whatsapp!). Voice note duration 15 minit tu kira cukup sekejap lah bila berceloteh. Kalau seminit punya voicenote tu maknanya cuma cakap benda remeh contohnya "weh kau tau tak harini aku terjatuh, sakit gila lepastu aku tengok bengkak rupanya, patutlah sakit" pastu elaborate pasal benda tu sampai seminit dua. Padahal boleh je taip benda tu. Baca pun takkan sampai 15 saat.
Hashtag cara cara membuang masa rakan paling efektif.
Anyway, 2017, 2017, 2017.
Selamat tahun baru y'alls!
So kita throwback how 2016 went for me?
Actually I am more to nak tulis ni untuk mengingatkan diri I pada masa hadapan macam mana life I waktu waktu sekarang. Mungkin next 10 years bila aku baca balik aku akan hantuk kepala dekat dinding melihat diriku sekarang? Wkwkwk.
So! 2016 has been amazing. Ada la ups & downs, tapi I don't really remember yang downs downs (nyanyi; baby are you down down down down down?) tu. Too many good ones, I can never thank God enough for everything yang Dia pinjamkan. Tapi yang paling down sekali of course lah waktu SPM.
Ada yang okay tapi ada yang buat aku berzikir dan dan on the spot ingat Tuhan. Sampai tak tahu nak letak target apa. 100% aku tawakkal je. Aku dah cuba yang terbaik inshaAllah, cuma Sejarah tu bila ingat balik memang teruk. Dia punya hentam jawapan tu aku taktahu lah Sejarah planet mana aku amik. Harap penanda kertas tu sihat jelah lepas tanda. Takut serangan jantung ke hati ke sebab panas sangat tengok jawapan aku. Haha.
Moving on, current obsession aku sekarang adalah Khai Bahar. Kenal tak kenal tak kenal tak y'alls? Kalau tak kenal bolehlah Google. Sebab memang Khai baru menaik dalam industri muzik ni. Kawan kawan aku semua tak tahu kewujudan dia & pelik kenapa aku obses dengan dia ni. Allia lah haritu aku ajak teman pergi jumpa dia, masa otw tu boleh Allia cakap "muka dia macam mana? I tak kenal langsung". Pastu tahlah berderet kengkawan dm aku tanya siapa dia sebab aku duk update igstory dengan muka dia.
"Dia ni siapa sebenarnya?"
100% kalau aku cakap dia boyfriend aku, dorang semua akan percaya. Tapi aku seorang yang jujur. LOL.
So nak dijadikan cerita, aku kenal dia ni daripada tahun 2014. Masatu famous dengan lagu Madah Berhelah, tapi taktau nama. Videos everywhere "Madah Berhelah versi lelaki" pastu semua cam amazed gila. Aku pulak sebagai seorang manusia yang asal pergi karaoke je mesti nyanyi lagu tu sampai terkeluar anak tekak, ofkoz lah amazed bila lelaki tarik high note macam neraka punya gempak. Sambil duduk pulak tu, kepala hotak dia. Tak tergelinciaq langsung, ha amek hang tergelinciaq aku bagi.
Aku cari punya cari, aku dapat tau nama dia Muhammad Khairul daripada account Youtube dia. Tapi masatu dia duk cover cover jelah. Tengok Youtube dia. Tapi tak layan semua lagu dia cover pun. Aku layan lagu Madah Berhelah tu jela. Malam siang bukak. Abang aku pun turut layannnnn. Search youtube "madah berhelah lelaki" 24/7 sampai pekak telinga.
Selang beberapa tahun, tiba tiba terjumpa video dia pi UiTM, semua fangirl dekat dia. Aku masatu macam aik??? Dah famous mamat ni??? Menarik! Mula lah aku follow dia dari situ. Tiba tiba opocot, ter-obses. Dia selalu buat live video dekat facebook. Memandangkan aku lambat join the club LOL, aku tengok semua live videos dia macam tengok movie. Terus tak tengok movie langsung! Tapi happy je tengok dia hahahahahha geli.
Live videos dia semua berdurasi approx. sejam. So memang macam tengok drama. Padahal tengok dia nyanyi, layan komen orang, "hai hai hai" tu je lah dia ulang. Pastu bila dia penat nak reply comment laju macam pili air, dia nyanyi. Setiap kali nak end live dia akan nyanyi Hasbi Rabbi. Lullaby dia kata, sebab dia selalu live pukul 1/2 pagi.
Sampai lah aku amik SPM, still aku gila bayang dekat dia. Aku syak sebab tu tajuk lagu dia Bayang kahkahkah! Esok tu nak Ekonomi Asas, aku sibuk tengok video dia. Bila ingat balik sekarang memang menyesal dan bodo piang. Masa aku spm la dia invite nyanyi kat Smule. Smule pulak ada expiry date, kalau ko tak nyanyi nanti ko terlepas dan tak boleh join dah. Pastu aku pun gigih lah nak join jugak. Masatu dia open lagu Berpisah Jua. Aku pulak tak pernah dengar lagu tu. Pastu bayangkan gigih aku nak kena belajar melodi dia betul betul sampai mak aku turut tension sebab aku buat lagu aku sendiri? Haha. Dari pukul 2 pagi sampai lah pukul 9 pagi aku berusaha untuk nyanyi dengan perfect. Last last aku tidur dengan penuh penyesalan sebab tak study. Lusa SPM exam EA. Pungkoq.
As days goes by, SPM pun dah habis. Rutin aku adalah tengok dia. One day tu buat kali pertama aku tengok live dia secara live. Get what I mean? Haha so aku pun bersungguh spam "sebut nama saya sebut nama saya!!!" Tension gila sebab chat box tu laju. Tapi dia sempat tangkap setelah kali ke berapa aku copy paste.
"Hi Afiqah"
Pastu aku tak puas hati. Aku mahukan nama penuh! Jadi aku spam lagi, "sebut Afiqah Yusof!!!!" and again, setelah berapa kali tu dia sebut, "hai Afiqah Yusof". Aku punya menjerit masatu pukul 11 malam (nasib baik awal lagi) kat ruang tamu bertemankan kakak aku tengah tengok Running Man masatu. Pastu dia baru perasan aku tengah tengok Khai punya live dan dia selaku seorang kakak yang obviously tahu pasal obsession aku ni, dia cakap "suruh la dia sebut nama Fiqah?" Haha dia punya fokus tengok tv, tak perasan apa dah!
"Dia dah sebut lahhhh"
"Suruh lah lagi, kakak nak dengar"
So aku pun spam lah lagi. Sorry, Khai. Salahkan kakak saya.
"Afiqah Yusof... eh saya dah sebut dah tadi!! Hi Afiqah Yusof, selamat malam," dia cakap.
Please bayangkan malam tu betapa aku rasa selamatnya dan indahnya malamku. Menjerit almost hilang anak tekak. Haha hiperbola.
Tapi sayangnya, live video tu tak boleh rekod. So aku murung jugak lepastu sebab tak dapat tengok lagi.
Start tu, aku main piano lagu dia untuk amik attention dia (desperate) tapi dia tak notice. Tapi sebenarnya aku rasa dia notice je cuma dia jual mahal as a celebrity dan dia taknak reply! Haha. Sebab aku rasa mustahil dia tak notice, dia bukan Justin Bieber yang notifications tak stop. Kawan kawan aku comment video aku in total 50+ comments semua mention dia. They were trying to help me to get noticed. Tapi cam sia sia so I ended up deleting that vid sebab bengang.
Lepastu Khai ni jenis bila dia upload gambar kat ig, bila orang comment dia akan buat macam comment section tu chat box dia. So fans tanya, dia jawab. Selalunya dia main pickup line & mengada ngada kat situ layan his supporters. Pernah sekali tu I said ada notice tak my piano cover and he replied..
Masa tu lagi lah tak normal iolls. Tapi I cuba chill chillsszzzz jerrrrr sebab nak mengekalkan kewarasan.
Lepas lepastu, dia kerap berbigo live dan nama aku dah kerap dia notice sampailah aku dah tak kisah kalau dia notice ke tak. Gitchiuuu. Faaaast forward to December 18th 2016, malam sebelum tu pukul 3 pagi [17 Disember] dia Bigo live and update yang dia akan pegi London esoknya [18 Dec] and flight dia pukul 8 malam. Time tu dia video call dengan cousin dia, so macam dia tengah sembang dengan cousin dia la what time dia pegi semua. Tapi aku sebagai pendengar ni tak senang duduk. Mungkin aku patut kejar dia kat KLIA kalau aku nak jumpa dia? Terdetik sebegitu. So aku pun mengumpul keberanian untuk mintak abang aku hantarkan.
Cuak kot. KLIA bukan dekat. Dan dan masatu kaki dia terseliuh and tak boleh drive sangat.
Tapi aku still cuba.
And abang aku sebagai seorang abang yang memahami adik dia tak normal, dia pun agree right away. But kawan dia drive sebab dia sakit kaki (pilu) (terima kasih). Masa jumpa tu memang banyak benda aku menyesal sebab so many things I wanted to say semua tapi tak terkeluar sebab sangat menggigil (over lagi), so walaupun I was happy tapi still banyak menyesal la.
Baru berapa hari start 2017 tapi rasa macam banyak belajar jugak within this first month of 2017 ni.
Oh! Not to forget haritu I went to Langkawi with my family. First time naik cable car semua semua tu and such a good experience! Tapi I tak dapat nak rasa gayat dia sebab sibuk gelak dekat abangmir yang gayat sangat sampai tak bergerak, padahal benda tu slow je. Nak tertidur aku. Haha.
So okay, that's the end of my post here. Let's see adakah my next entry will be on 2018 pulak? Kah kah! Mari ikuti pengembaran saya mengejar Khairul Bahaq kehkehkeh.
Being a girl is so freaking difficult.
Friday, January 8, 2016 @ 2:28 AM
Hello.
I wanted to actually shorten this post to just make it my Instagram caption tapi nvm la, since I havent been updating my blog for months, why not now when I actually have a topic. Lol.
Anyway, it's the 8th of jan 2016. Happy new year! Iz it too late now to say hny..? #sorry #justinbieber.
School has been doing pretty well.. so far. It's just the 5th day btw LOL. But I kinda like it la ok la the teachers r so far ok. 17 already, SPM in just a few months. I am not emotionally, mentally & physically ready. I don't think I ever will be. Haha
Anyway, let's get straight into what I'm writing this post for at the 1st place -- being a girl is so freaking difficult!
I came across a vid on Instagram, a girl trying to put her fake eyelashes on with difficulties.. then she said that. My title. "Being a girl is so freaking difficult!" It's not exactly like that though tbh. I changed the actual f-word to 'freaking' because come on, my blog iz clean!! Haha.
I disagree to what she said.
Being a girl is honestly not difficult.
I the other day, tried to wear my shawl with a different kind of style from how I usually do wrap it. Saje la nak try test tengok orang lain pakai macam lawa je. Jadi aku sebagai manusia yang konon nak get in with the trend, I wanted to give it a try. I took ard 30 minutes to pakai the bloody shawl. Or more. I can't recall but I took a lot of time, trust me. Padahal org lain dah biasa and amik masa maybe ard 5 mins je. And then there's me.. baru nak try.
It was depressing.
The first try it was too labuh, sampai it covered my siku. Second try, too short it exposed my chest. Third try, sloppy. Fourth fifth sixth try mengamuk keluar semua carutan. Kalau iman at the lowest point tu, confirm buat keputusan nak freehair on that day jugak!! Nauzubillahminzalik hahaha nasib baik la bertahan dengan kenipisan iman yang masih tinggal tu.
Then my brother came, "pakai macam biasa jelah". My brother as someone who hates seeing me try so hard... dia memang camtu! Kakak kat belakang "ok dah tu, pakai je macam tu. cantik dah" lepastu bertekak, "cantik memang cantik, tapi bamir lagi suka Fiqah pakai macam biasa". My bro obv likes benda-benda yang simple. Kalau boleh pakai tudung bawal, pakai la. Kadang tu pakai lipstick pun dia kecoh! Haha. Suka natural beauty sangat konon.
Lepastu last try, it worked. Tak perfect. Tapi as long as I myself tak fikir that I look like an animal pun ok dah. What u think of u, is what prolly ppl also think of u. Kot? At least that's what I think! Gelak lagi. I'm so a narcissist. Nampak sangat fikir apa diri sendiri fikir je kakahakahakaahkakaa.
Time tu fikir, ok nak pegi Curve. Nanti time solat susah la nak lilit balik. I don't want to spend another 30 mins after every waktu solat just to put my shawl on! So dah set if I can't pakai shawl tu betul betul on d first try lepas solat, i'll just wrap it macam biasa. U know the wrap it once ard ur head je, lepastu dah, settle.
But surprisingly dalam surau masatu -- eh sekali try terus ok. Macam oo wow gitew. Mungkin urusan dipermudahkan selepas solat, ha nampak tak? Lepasni nak pakai shawl kena pakai dalam surau.
Tu pun tak perfect terus la. I still had to go to the toilet sebenarnya untuk adjust bagi bebetul sebab pin tu cekik sampai I couldn't tilt my head. Pandang kiri kanan pun susah, macam ada orang yang menghalang kepala untuk bergerak. Annoying gila ok? So I went to d toilet.. fixed it and keluar balik.
Thing is, I struggled. Over a freaking shawl.
Not because I'm a girl.
Being a girl is not difficult.
Trying to be pretty is.
The fact that I can just wrap my shawl macam biasa je, but I chose to try to be pretty and follow steps on Youtube (hijjab tutorial side loose) (so bila marah I can flip my hijjab). I could wear tudung bawal, I could wear instant shawl, I could wear bokita, I could wear tudung sarung. But I didn't want to.
I was the one yang made what's actually boleh jadi senang je sebenarnya but
I chose to buat yang susah. Why?
I wanted to feel pretty. I also care abt what people would think about me (tbh) tapi main reason adalah kalau boleh I wanna look into the mirror sampai rasa macam..
omg..
i v v insecure w myself.
Ha narcissist gila, bukan? Tapi jangan lah buat selalu apatah lagi depan orang. Kakakakakakakka.
I used to be the girl who never cares. I can go out, to Sunway Pyramid and just wear tudung sarung I bought for 10MYR, kasut sekolah yang tak pernah basuh, stoking sekolah also, and yh..
Masa form 2, I even went to school dengan kain sekolah tak bergosok because I thought, alah siapa je tengok kain sekolah orang?
Bila fikir balik sekarang, bapak selekehnya. Anak sape ko ni?? Haha.
It's fine to try hard ke for our own satisfaction, that's what I think la. Cuma don't over-do it and don't complain. Allah has made u as a girl so be it. You just have to be you, it's not even difficult. Google out the benefits of being born as a woman. Even guys would prolly want to be a woman tau. Mungkin sebab tu pondan berleluasa. KakakakKk lagi.
And by the way, if you're person who doesn't really care abt what ppl think of u and think that you're pretty enough that you never have to try anything to satisfy urself, make sure at least you're neat dan tak selekeh like how I used to! Haha. Tu macam selekeh campur pengotor kasut sekolah putih macam kasut sekolah pengawas. Pembersih pun ok dah senanya. Setakat tudung kelepet apala sangat kan.
listeners.
Saturday, September 5, 2015 @ 4:00 PM
Assalamualaikum!
As stated above -- listeners. Listeners ni for me, can be anyone. But surely someone we trust. Could be our siblings, parents, paling common sekali bestfriends la. Tak pun partner masing-masing. Kan?
I have banyak gila listeners. I have this inner side of me yang I cannot keep things about myself sendiri-sendiri. When I have problems, I share. I can't keep it alone. Rasa macam sangat necessary to keluarkan. Even the smallest thing pun. I. Need. To. Tell. Although most of the time memang I like to be alone. Kat rumah pun memang melekat dalam bilik unless time makan mandi tu. Jumpa family members pun bila dorang masuk my bilik. That time la nak share cite pasal itu ini.. what happened at school ke apa ke. Kalau tak, tak la. Kami communicate through whatsapp je. Walaupun satu rumah. Punya la hidup dgn teknologi. Tapi kalau tengok tv mesti menjerit panggil sapa sapa. Bosan tengok sorang-sorang.
I have many friends. Semua kawan dari lain lain group. I mean, I have 4 different groups of friends. Harini lepak dengan group ni, esok dengan ni, lusa dengan ni, tulat dengan ni pulak. Semua lain lain members (that kinda explains why I go out so many times). Kang keluar dgn group ni, esok dengan group lain tak keluar ada yang merajuk 'keluar dengan tu boleh, ngan kitorang tak boleh'. Gitew. Emotional kan? Kekeke....
Ada kawan yang I have known since primary school. Ada yang baru kenal 2 years ago dan ada jugak yang baru kenal last year.
So my listeners r basically the ones yang I've known since primary. Juga yang I've known past years dan dah selesa gila. Takdela share probs with ALL of my bestfriends. Letih nak ulang benda sama. I usually luahkan on whatsapp. So bila malas nak ulang, I'll just forward the same text kat lain-lain orang.
You know why? I like getting different kinds of responses and advices.
Ada yang malas-malas nak reply. Kita cakap panjang, dia balas ciput. Ada yang memang reply panjang betul sampai voice note 6 minit. Ada yang reply through text jugak dan berjela macam karangan. Ada yang reply pendek je tapi deep betul. Semua lain-lain, betul.
Sedih pun ada jugak yang jenis bila dia cite probs dia kat kita, kita bagi advices sehabis mungkin. Tapi bila turn kita, nak taknak je. Kadang ada yang bluetick je. Lagi sedih bila yang macam ni is the one yang kita dah kenal lama.. tapi reply macam.... I don't know, dissapointing.
Ada yang baru kenal last year. And the replies lagi membantu daripada yang dah kenal for years. Really saddening. Macam tak tahu which one yang dah bestfriends lama and which one yang baru kenal ni?
Then again, I realize la nak cari listeners yang bebetul ni bukan kira how long you guys have known each other. It really depends on how the person is. Serious, kalau dia jenis memang ada time susah and senang, kalau baru kenal sebulan pun, dia akan ada.
Dapat jugak pengajaran when you do something to someone, jangan expect them to do the same thing. Tak kisah la how many times you're there bila dia susah, but s/he tak macam tu the time you need them, then ya.. what to do? Dorang cara dorang, kita cara kita.
Macam mana pun I still love my friends regardless of how they reply to my stories. Mungkin they were born memang jenis taktahu nak reply apa when people share probs to them! Takkan nak putus kawan merajuk just over this kind of matter, kan?
Cuma jangan ulang apa dorang buat to us. I mean, bila dorang buat camtu, kita pun buat the same thing. Dorang takda masa kita perlukan, kita pun taknak ada masa dorang perlukan. We know how it feels like, it actually in some ways -- hurts. So macam takpala tak necessary pun to hurt the ones yang hurt us balik. Maybe dorang tak sedar yang dorang buat tu sakitkan hati. Even kita dah terus terang pun la, Allah knows why they r like that.
Do good, nanti Tuhan balas balik punya. InshaAllah.
up2.
Friday, September 4, 2015 @ 10:49 PM
Assalamualaikum!
Hai.
UP2 has ended today. Buat berapa kalinya aku menyesal sebab study last minit. Aku harap benda ni takkan berulang untuk final exam nanti.
I'm like 80% sure I'm going to fail like majority of the subjects. Punya la blank the whole time. Jawab exam macam tak pernah pergi sekolah.
Tadi paper EA. Mengantuk dia memang teruk punya mengantuk. First time jugak dalam sejarah hidup aku mengantuk sebegitu teruk masa exam. Tersengguk-sengguk pandang paper. Dah lah blank taktahu nak hantam apa bahagian subjektif.
Sekejap 2-3 saat mata terpejam. 3 saat tu punya la indah siap mimpi. Sedar balik try la tulis 2 3 ayat gigih nak hentam jugak, at least tak tinggal kosong.
Dalam keadaan mamai..
Tulis kat ruang jawapan 'semangat bangsa....' apa ni? Paper ekonomi taktahu lah bahagian mana yang nak semangat bangsa sangat.
Taktahu masa tu nak gelak ke menangis. Harapan aku sekarang takde la aku hantar paper EA tu yang terkandung apa-apa yang aku tulis masa mamai tapi tak perasan, lupa nak padam ke apa ke. Harap cikgu tak give up dengan aku.
Maaf cikgu.
Piano.
Wednesday, May 27, 2015 @ 7:48 PM
I think I owe people a story about my piano journey (lah sangat!) haha. How I started to continue playing after 3 years of abandoning it. Yes, three years.
I started learning at the age of 11.
Sebenarnya I was torn in between to learn piano ke violin. Then I decided to amik violin because omg who knows why??? Lepastu ayah kata violin boring sebab lagu slow slow & menyedihkan serta lagu yang memurungkan hidup je yang boleh main. Unless dah gempak level Lindsey Stirling yang kena belajar bertahun tahun. But I didn't mind. Nak jugak nak jugak nak jugak!
And then we went to the class nak register. Teacher tu cakap nak belajar violin if you know nothing about music ni memang susah sangat. So okay, I go with piano. Tapi tak register lagi. Ayah cakap register after beli piano. Kang dah belajar kat class takde piano kat rumah, cemana nak practise.. And yup, you can consider that piano really was my second choice. And then we bought an electronic piano. Of course lah excited. Second choice tak second choice. I couldn't get over piano. Tiap masa hadap dia je. Padahal tak reti main pun. Sebab tak enter class lagi time tu.
So permulaan, I refer to synthesia. Time tu layan Metallica. Belajar Nothing Else Matter. Dah main sikit, terus suruh ayah dengar aku main. He was proud. That I didnt attend class pun I already can play kinda well for a beginner - who knows nothing abt music at that time. Tapi synthesia kot. Siapa je tak boleh follow? Masa tu jela bajet sikit muahahahha.
And then few weeks later baru masuk class what so ever bla bla bla sampai 3 years. Sampai la form 1. And then I lost interest. I got bored. Cikgu piano asyik ditukar tukar. Mood pun tukar tukar. Dah suka cikgu tu, few months dia tukar lagi. Until last sekali I got a male teacher. And kinda pissed sebab dia ajar sambil dia belajar. Because class tu 30 minutes je tau, and once a week. So don't waste time plZZzzsss??? Teach me. You're my teacher. U learn at home. In class, u teach me.
Gitew ha. Protes.
So macam, you know it's kinda annoying bila dia nak ajar "like this," lepastu dia main piano to show me. Kejap lagi dia stop because he hit the wrong note. Lepastu dia try so many times sampai dapat. Sama la cemana aku practise kat rumah. I know people make mistakes. But if every classes buat macam tu bosan la jugak. I expect u to teach me. Ko praktis la kat rumah, cmOn! Dia bazirkan suku masa kelas aku tau. Kalau class free takpe. Huh! Okay dah lah tu. nak cite pasal cikgu ke pasal aku kan?
And then stop la piano class. Pujuk ayah nak violin. Kengkonon sebab dah tahu pasal music. Accepted. Ayah pun belikan violin. Few months after class violin tu I stopped HAHAHA!
Violin gotta be the hardest shit to learn. Bosan ah nak gesek bow pun aku give up.
So start pertengahan 2012 sampai la 2014 memang aku tak main instruments. Dengar lagu je. Kadang kadang bila bosan main piano. Repeat lagu yang sama selama 2 taun tu sebab memang takde mood betul nak belajar lagu lain. Lagu nothing else matters pun dah lupa. Main lagu Marriage D Amour je. Dah sampai 2 taun, I can actually play lagu tu with my eyes shut. Family pun agaknya bernanah telinga. Haha.
Lepastu, 2015 comes.
Shahzreen, my unbiological sister sejak darjah 6. She's the one yang memang support me in everything I do. And then she loves seeing me play lagu Marriage D Amour tu. This year, she uploaded me playing the song dekat Instagram dia. And then the comments memang gave me semangat to continue playing. Tapi macam tu macam tu jela. Tak main jugak pun.
Kemudian, I, as a typical teenage girl... bhaha I like someone. :)
I don't really consider it as me liking that someone. I fell in love. By his way at everything he does, his voice and.. whatever bla bla bla. Yet he doesn't even know my full name. Odd is that, I didn't even know who he was. Adakah ini namanya chenta di pandang pertama? Bhaha! We share the same school though. And I know almost everything about him ald. Lol.
I told my siblings about it. Lepastu pesanan abangku, he said to not stop playing piano. Continue. In some ways, maybe, who knows that would attract him.
So I did. I listen to his advice. Months after, my instagram feed is full with piano covers. He did like some of my vids. I get song requests quite a lot. Didn't thought I'd end up being like this. My obsession over piano is mad. I can also play some songs by ear. Currently having 20 pending requests. And get to know alot of pianists who also watch my cover kat Instagram.
Dekat sekolah pun tak sabar balik rumah because nak main piano.
I actually have a hobby, and a life, something to do when I'm bored. You know. Other than tweeting and instagram-ing and such. I. Have. A. Hobby.
And I thank my crush a lot for that. He gives me my life back. And from that I think piano is really meant for me. Dari dulu macam asyik ke arah piano je. Though my heart goes for violin, tapi Tuhan dah letakkan piano for me.
And now I don't play piano to even attract my crush anymore. I play it from my heart. I play it for me. I get happiness. And calmness. Peaceful. Because literally, 'we can't touch music'.
But it can touch you.
Sincerely.
2015
Saturday, January 17, 2015 @ 6:54 AM
Assalamualaikum!
It's 2015.
2015!!
For some people, no not some. For majority of people they say 2015 is just a new plain year like the other previous years where nothing actually change but the number of the year. Same self, same things to go through, same ""shit"" or whatever they claim it to be. They say -- it all still are the same.
Not for me.
Everything's changed.
Even I had to change my ambition -- which hurts so bad. Started school on Jan 12th. It was the worst day of my life. And since then I never had a beauty sleep at night. Have been crying my eyes out since that day. It was a total nightmare, I've been praying to God to please wake me up. Until today I still hope for that day was just a dream. & He didnt grant that one.
I believe it when they say that He never says no. That there's never a "no" from Him. That He either says "Yes," "Yes, but not now," or "I have a better plan for you."
For sure it's not a Yes for me this time. And I still dont know if it's a "later" or He has a better plan for me.
I, since teachers start asking "what do you want to be when you grow up?"
I never had to think twice. I only had one ambition.
And then I grew slightly older. They changed the question to a much simpler way because I was wiser. Umur dah up sikit. People no longer ask apa nak jadi besar nanti to a 12 years old. Kita tanya, "apa cita cita?"
Simple. Senang.
Still the same. And I thought that day, ok, this is what I want to be, it will not change. No matter what.
But there go, my wrong. My fault. Because all I ever do was hope. And keep reminding myself that that's what I want to be, itu cita-cita kau. But I didn't work my best for it. Instead I even failed dekat tengah tengah jalan.
Not even slightly close nak dapatkan, and then fail.
My PT3 results suck. It was the worst thing that had happened to me, lepas 15 taun of living. It was the worst so far I swear to God. It changed the whole game. The whole plan I made for my future sejak I was 11/12.
But I don't know if that sucks more or the time my name been called to enter a class dengan aliran ICT. I don't know which sucks more.
No, I am not saying my class sucks. Aliran ICT sucks. Or I have no future or takde peluang kerja in 20 years. I love my class.
ICT is fun. Siapa tak suka komputer? I am a student. Dude, a secondary school student. Internet. This thing yang sangat dunia kini. I cannot live without computer, technology, internet and all of this.
The thing I've been crying my eyes out over adalah sebab I have to make myself a wake up call everyday that, now, wahai diri, you, can not & can never achieve your dreams anymore. Sangat jauh from aliran ICT to become a doctor.
I had, to change my ambition.
And my friend, it hurts. Very, extremely hurts. Still I can feel my heart aches everytime I see anything related to doctor -- hospital and so on.
But ICT is one of the thing yang aku sangat minat. Can't say yang aku sangat anti ICT dan sangat tak suka ICT, because computer is my thing. Tech is so my thing. Sangat sangat minat. I love solving problems yang berkait dengan laptop.
But the issue is, my ambition was to be a doctor. My only ambition. No, not was. Still is. Nak jadi doctor ofkoz la kena amik aliran science. Apa tiba tiba belajar komputer keluar keluar jadi doktor kan? Hahak! *masukkan cip dalam badan pesakit*
I can do nothing about it. I dont know where I'm going sebab aku taktau pun aliran ICT ni bila keluar alam sekolah boleh jadi apa. Aku taktau pun aliran ni wujud sebenarnya. Aku tau pasal komputer, basic things, tapi aku taktau what to become. Engineer computer? Programmer? Tu je aku tau.
2015 is a total different year, different everything untuk aku. Everything's changed. Dan all I aim for adalah to score my maths, science and addmaths untuk 1st upcoming exam nanti -- ayah said to score addmaths.
I hope I can go far in this. I promised myself to not play around and keluar every week anymore. Lol.
Anyways, I've visited alot of cool cafes previously with my friends tapi on 2014 la and ingat nak update but photos semua dalam phone. So I'll update soon! Ciao.
em.
Wednesday, April 2, 2014 @ 7:19 PM
Bismillah.
"Bagi ibu simpan duit tu, nanti hilang"
"Alah, takpe. Simpan sendiri je"
"Bagi. Kenapa degil sangat ni?"
"Alah, takpe lah ibu ni kenapanya?"
Silence.
She got angry and left.
"Jangan keluar" she said while walking uptairs.
"Padan muka" said my brother. "Bagi jelah ibu simpan" he continued.
I grabbed my phone and left. Went to my friend's house. Kemudian pergi makan, lepastuh pergi sekolah lepak sampai pukul enam setengah petang.
Long story short, we played dare dekat sekolah. Recorded every single thing. And then... datang seorang pengawas.
"Cikgu Aizam suruh rampas phone."
From there, all our smiles were all dead. Terkejut. Gile kau tak terkejut?
Tulah, leka lagi. Ko dah tau henfon tu barang larangan kat sekolah. Ko gi bawak lagi. Ko gi memain lagi. Bangang.
There it go, my phone is in his hand since yesterday. I still havent got it now. Whatever. Cut that crap.
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"Kalau henfon kau kena rampas, mampus kau."
"Ceit, tak mampus lah. Kena rampas je. Tak mampus pun."
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Lari rumah, pergi kedai makan, yang jauh daripada rumah. Jauh sangat. Handphone & dompet dibiarkan terlantar atas meja. Tengok langit.
"Eh, peliknye. Amende tuh? Kenapa langit macam tu?"
Langitnya gelap. Cantik. Tapi ada striking macam petir. Cuma dia lebih seperti api. Warna oren oren macam tu. Strike dia jauh dari tempat aku makan. Maka aku biar. Mungkin itu fenomena yang jarang berlaku, sebab tu perak semacam. Lupa pulak nak snap gambar. Cis, benda macam tu takde pulak nak dicapture. Makanan sebelum makan aku masuk instagram dulu sebelum makan. Ah sudah.
Tiba tiba rasa macam bahang dekat sangat dengan aku.
Pandang depan dari jauh hujung belah kanan ada api berbentuk snowball yang amat sangat besar laju melintas mengejar semua makhluk kat tengah jalan. Memang api tu ikut road je. Tak belok belok pulak. Terus aku lari. Sempat jugak aku fikir sebelum tu, "nak amik ke taknak henfon dengan dompet ni?"
Ada satu suara dari belakang menjerit "jangan amik apa apa! Lari!" Terus aku lari menyelamatkan diri. Bukan aku sorang je. Semua manusia atas jalan tu sekali. Dikejar api. Ada jugak yang sempat pi ketuk rumah orang suruh lari sekali. Sape tak cuak, kena kejar api berbentuk snowball yang besar? Ko paham? Api bulat besar daripada rumah kejar engko.
Lepastu, aku taktahu macam mana benda tu boleh end. Semua rumah dah hancur. Tinggal satu masjid atau surau ni selamat. Maka semua berkumpul kat situ. Aku ikut balik track api tu datang tadi. Pegi kedai makan yang dah hancur, tempat aku makan tadi. Cari henfon dan dompet aku.
Handphone memang hancur teruk. Dompet masih selamat. Duit dalam tu pun selamat. Alhamdulillah. Kawan aku sorang di sisi belah kanan pesan, "simpan duit tu elok elok. Sorokkan. Jangan bagi orang nampak. Nanti semua berebut"
Paham paham la, semua orang punya duit rumah dah hancur. Duit aku je selamat. Itu pun alhamdulillah.
Kawan dari sisi kiri pulak kata, "Kenape bersubahat dengan dia? Rampas lah duit tu!"
Balik ke masjid, semua dalam masjid menjerit "sapa ada duit, kumpulkan atas meja! Letak!" Tegas suaranya. Aku diam buat taktahu. Tiba tiba duit aku jatuh. Oh crap! Semua mengamuk. Sorang ustaz datang hampir dekat aku, dicapai kepala aku. Dia nak hantuk kepala aku atas meja sebab menipu.
Tapi aku merayu dekat dia, "tolong lah ustaz, jangan."
Aku kutip balik duit duit aku yang bertaburan atas lantai. Duit not besar macam rm100 & rm50, aku sorokkan. Duit yang nilai kecik kecik aku letak atas meja.
Malam tu, aku escape dari situ. Balik semula ke rumah. Kawasan rumah aku selamat. Tak ada apa. Duit semua simpan dalam tabung.
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That was a dream I dreamt this morning. Bangun tidur kena kejut dengan abang sebab menangis. Bangun bangun tuh memang basah muka aku dengan air mata. Terus masuk bilik tidur dalam aircond. That dream was weird and scary.
Very, okay. I couldnt describe how I felt after I woke up. It was.. super.. wow. I was petrified. Oh, yang kena rampas phone tu real story ye. Start daripada 'lari rumah' tu yang mimpi.
Sekian.
me
Monday, January 27, 2014 @ 8:06 AM
Bismillah, assalamualaikum.
It has been how many months since I last updated my baby?!?!?!?!?! Wao. Can't believe I left my blog for 2 months like I used to cannot live without updating this thing in a day. At least to keep something in draft. Meeeeh.
2013 was a good year for me. So many memories to be kept. So many things.
So, todays the 27th day of 2014. A new start. Start fresh. 27 January 2014, im going to HUKM in few minutes. Curi jap masa nak hapdet blog ku ini. Operation is tomorrow inshaAllah. That is the main point of this entry. I went out w my friends yesterday kat Sunway and had a splendid time.
From 11AM till Maghrib. Then I perform Maghrib at home, and straight away after solat I went to OU with family. I ate super alot. Well, pasnih kena puasa =p
I hope everything will go well. I surely will update MORE.
Before I hear ibu jerit panggil nama, wkwkwkwkwk. Goodbye.
Oh ya, Aisyah Aziz wished me GOOD LUCK. Hehe.
-I love Ariana Grande and Pierce The Veil- (tetibe)
all in one (lagi)
Thursday, October 31, 2013 @ 1:49 PM
*THOUGHT I POSTED THIS POST LONG TIME AGO ALRDY. IT'S IN THE DRAFT. SOZ DIDNT REALIZE*
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum!
I dont know from where should I start! It has been berapa bulan tah? since I last updated my blog. Why? Obviously, I was sad to know that he's married, so that is one of the reason why I didnt update my blog. Aiceh! JK. The actual reason is, MALAS.
I'm lazier to update abt 10 things in a post so thats why im here! Tu pun ada dalam 4 berita (kot) (aku pun tak kira) Kita tengok je. Aku nak tulis nanti baru ingat nak cerita pasal apa.
Firstly, i am now a granny!!!!! Ok not a granny, that's too much. Mak sedara kot hahaha? Since OB panggil aku kakak so anak dia tu anak buah aku so aku ni mak sedara anak OB? Ah, whatever.
Yeap, OB gave birth on September 8th haritu.
SUBUH SUBUH TAU TAK?!
She didnt make any sound pun. Tetibe rasa macam dikejut orang, terus bangun dan didapati 3 ekor anak kucing depan mata. Terkejut kau. Baru bangun tidur dah la mamai, aku ingat tikus. Terkejut gila. Alhamdulillah.
Pukul 7 something, dia lahirkan lagi. In front of my eyes. Dalam almari pulak tu. Sempat rakam. Comel sangat. Sekarang ni Alhamdulillah semua baby kittens sihat. And dah boleh bukak mata pun! OB pun baru vaccine, tunggu dah habis menyusu anak anak terus nak spay.
Nama kittens, Coco, Fros, Casper & Oreo. Nanti ada gambar.
Second, abang Faiz dah fly pergi Ireland 2 minggu lepas. Congrats abang Faiz and may everythings going to be well until you'll come back to Malaysia, soon. Sedih sebenarnya bila ingat balik. Off the topic lah. Hahahahahahaha.
Third, Frangipani, Noddy & OB dah masuk satu tahun dua hari lepas. I couldnt believe that. Theyve grown so fast in front of my eyes. Dulu ketot. Sekarang gemok. Dulu kurus. Sekarang dah ada anak. Aiseh. Celebrate bday dorang dengan Royal Canine. Dengan Alisa sekali. Pelahap sungguh makan. Bukan selalu kakak nak beli gini kah kah kah.
Fourth, semalam try nak buat caramel tapi it ended up jadi telur yang tak masak langsung. Jangan tanya. Memang caramel yang langsung tak jadi. Sedih sangat. Maybe i'll just need to stick with cooking maggie je.
Fifth, Kamel's bro passed away haritu. Tak ingat tarikh tepat tapi maybe around last month. Al-fatihah.
Sixth, kakak bought a new phone (iPhone 5) which she has been dying for quite some time, aku kat sini cuma mampu conquer telefon dia je. Siblings semua pakai iPhone leaving me stuck with BlackBerry. Tsk.
Seventh, order buku Lumos haritu kat satu tempat Handmade Notebook ni and it turned out great just how we want it to be. We share our secrets in there and probably release our tension a bit, by telling our secrets to each other. Like how ppl usually write in their diary or something. That's ours. I love the book.
Eighth, I stopped Violin Class bc of the teacher. She's too annoying. And because I was too lazy to practise it so... yeah.
Ninth, I went to HUKM last Monday (i guess) and we've confirmed, inshaAllah, I'll go for my surgery on February 11th 2014. And if theres any date earlier than that, the doc will inform. Guess im ready. I didnt chose this to happen but then again, I tried my best. And everything just didnt work out. I am tired. And hoping everyone to understand. I had enough. Let Allah plan the rest. I know He knows best for me, bc He knows what I dont.
Ada orang kata,
Kalau buat satu keputusan and bila fikir pasal benda tu buat hati jadi lapang and tenang, mungkin tu satu keputusan yang baik. InshaAllah.
:)
Tenth, I adopt a new cat which I rescued kat kampung. She lost her mom and keep running towards me. Pastuh ibu terus suruh bawak balik. I named her Foundy. And yeap, she joined us celebrate my babies' bday jugak haritu.
Eleventh, (BUT THIS ENTRY WAS SUPPOSED TO BE BELOW TO 10 THINGS TO TELL) I nearly forgot to share abt how my Raya went. It was good, but less meriah than how it was before. I miss 2005, (refer to a pic ibu kept) where all of our cousins were there. I counted and if I wasnt mistaken my families got about 13 - 19 family members and this year's Raya there were probably only like 7 - 9 families. Not a big family though and they came on the third raya WHICH IS ON FIRST AND SECOND RAYA was damnly bored but bc of there were lots of food and got quite a lot duit raya the boredness doesnt been THAT BORED.
Because as soon as we (the kids) (am i a kid too????????) (well maybe bc im cute) dapat duit raya we ran to any rooms yang got no ppl in there, ada 6 rooms kat kampung, to count our money. And lawan siapa lagi banyak. LOL. So pathetic, yeap we are.
XD
Twelfth, I, since last month, I collect my money to buy a 5s. I didnt eat at school, I search for coins everywhere. Macam orang gila, peluh sebab cari duit syiling. I'm out of my mind, can tell. Because of the damn iPhone 5s. Lol.
So before, the @MalaysianiPhone tweeted the price, he said it'll be RM2200, lepas iPhone 5s keluar Malaysia nanti. Perhaps, on December. After I knew the price would be 2200 lah aku kumpul. I thought it was good and reasonable aaaand standard Apple kot handphone harga macam tu. KOT. Cis.
But then after I reached RM700, he tweeted again saying it was freaking RM3000 kat LowYatt at the moment. I cried. I threw all of my money away. I...gave up.
Was thinking to sell my Violin & BlackBerry. But then I asked myself, am I really doing this?
Selling two things I love, collect coins and money selagi boleh just to buy a phone?
A phone?
ITS A PHONE AND IM GOING TO SELL MY PHONE AND A VIOLIN FOR A PHONE BALIK?!?!?!?
I advised myself not to give up balik, should finish what I started AND this thing needs to be worth it because I did not eat at school for this ok I tried my hardest to get it.
And on top of that, I'll make sure I get the gold one. I guess it's going to be quite hard sebab semua suka gold, kat luar negara semua sold out yang gold and lots of ppl were frustated that they have to buy the black one. I'll wait if dia sold out kah kah kah.
Sebab kena lah beli benda yang aku betul betul puas hati kan.
Susah payah haku, sekali dapat bukan 100% yang aku nak. Lol.
Ok, aku rasa sampai sini je. Thank you (haha) Salamualaik.
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4 berita la sangat.
Ingat nak include gambar sekali banyak-banyak. In 2 or 3 days I'll re update this entry & letak gambar. Sebab kalau nak letak gambar sekarang tak boleh, satgi memang tak update terus. Muahaha.
Who cares anyway XD
He's married.
Friday, August 16, 2013 @ 4:41 AM
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, assalamualaikum.
My family & I were at the hospital..
We were eating and suddenly abang Mir told me that Fatih is married. I wasnt shocked, at all. Because I just stalk him couple of hours ago??? So I.. for sure didnt believe my bro.
Until by the night I sign into my Twitter & received a tweet from Jiha.
"Fiqaaaaaaaaaaah! THE WIFE????????" with a pic of Fatih & his wife.
My heart dropped.
Jaw dropped as well.
THANK GOD MY TEARS DIDNT.
Imagine what'll my family respond if i cry kan. Over gila hahaha.
I was alone in the room (ward) by that time. I can't remember where were the others. Makan kot? Another thing to thank God for, haha. It was a perfect situation to be alone! I stare at all of the pics he posted. 4 pics of him with his wife.
Keep staring.
And...
Tried my best not to cry. Lols. Yang ni sangat over.
Please, nobody knows how & what I feel.
Sangat dramatic.
Safiyya Kara is the name of that very lucky girl.
Luckiest, i meant.
"You'd think the girls are gonna take a break now that Fatih is taken? Nah! Islam permits 4 wives."Haha!
So i guess im not taking a break? LOL.
Barakallahu fik. Mabrouk Fatih & Safiyya! May He shower both of you w His blessings. Be happy.
The wife is pretty.
"My love :)"
"Me and the wifeyy :)"
Shoot me. Maynnnnnn.
Congratulations again Fatih & Safiyya!
Lost my appetite habis dah weh. How can I eat???????????
Too sad to eat asdfghjkl.
But by eating is the only thing that could probably cheer me up. Hahaha crap
Whatever.
Leave me alone to die.
Tadi solat Zohor. Sensorang. Sebab kakak takde. Ibu tidur. Takkan la nak kejut ajak teman solat kat tingkat atas kan? Kesian pulak. Pakai kasut terus jalan sensorang naik floor 4. Aku floor 3. Satu floor je. Hati takut jugak, tapi rilek la. Hospital je pun. Doktor nurse kiri kanan.
Masuk surau, solat.
Keluar. Kan depan lif memang ada ruang untuk lif je. Floor tu rasanya memang khas untuk tandas & surau je. Tak besar. Kecik je. Lagi satu ruang tak pasti ruang untuk apa. Jalan nak menuju ke lif, bump into this male bangla w mask covering his face. Mask yang pakai kalau ko selesema tu. Ingat, waktu waktu H1N1 dulu tu? Ha.
Act normal. What do you expect for me to think abt that bangla? Aku agak pekerja biasa jelah. Apa lah nak hiraukan sangat kan?
Kat situ ada 4 lif. Ada satu lif ni, pintu terbukak. Kat depan ada tanda lif rosak ke abende tah. Tapi papan kuning macam papan yang 'Caution! Wet floor' kalau kat mall tu. Ha yang tu. Lif tu memang terbukak. Aku agak memang lif tu rosak. Ok, berapa kali nak ulang?
Lepastu bangla tadi masuk lif tu. Kemudian panggil aku, "masuk sini pun tak apa. mari." eh aku dah apebendebanglani suruh aku masuk lif rosak???? Still normal. Dia lelambai suruh aku masuk lif tu. Tetibe rasa tak selesa. Over-thinking abt bad things dah! Rasa keadaan kat situ pulak sunyi je.
Aku tunduk, geleng, "takpe takpe". Maintain senyum weh. Tekan button. Kalau ada tangga pun aku tak rasa aku amik tangga. Kalau dia ikut tak ke lagi haru? Tera nak turun tangga tu lagi mengambil masa lama dari turun lif kan? Tapi memang tak nampak tangga kat situ.
Tunggu lif... masih tak sesampai. Dah lagi menunggu pasal nervous, rasa lama lah kan.
Bangla tu keluar dari lif yang rosak tu. Berdiri depan aku.
"Dah makan?"
PULAK DAH.
SDGBSJGAIHBGFSHGAKJNGAIHBGAIUG
DONT TALK TO ME GO AWAY
"Dah dah"
Angguk. Tenung lantai.
Pintu lif terbukak. Laju masuk. Tetibe bangla tu ikut masuk sekali.
Macam nak mencarut akibat ketakutan tapi maintain rilek sebab aku duduk sebelah nombor nombor tingkat tu dan floor satu je maka dekat.
Dalam lif tu dia tanya,
"Siapa patient?"
"Mak."
"Umur awak berapa?"
"14"
"Dah kahwin ke?"
For gods sake lah this man? Tu pun kau kena ambik tahu ke? Like, apa kena mengena dengan kau???????????
"Belum." Mata aku still maintain kat lantai lif. Tunggu bila lif ni nak terbukak.
WHY IT TAKES SO LONG?!?!?!
"Ada boyfriend?"
"Takde takde."
Bam. Terus pintu lif terbukak. Laju lah aku keluar. Boleh pulak dia kata bye kat aku? Memang aku tak toleh brader. Kat floor tu dah aman, sebab banyak nurse & doc berkeliaran. Terus laju langkah diatur menuju ke wad.
Terus cerita kat semua. Kah kah kah.
Moral of the story, no matter how brave you are, do not go anywhere alone walaupun dekat, beb. Serik. Even takde pape pun jadi kat aku. Ni lah pengajaran. Aku ni poyo berani sangat. Sekali orang tegur macam tu pun dah serik. Ha nampak tak?????
Lots of thing could happen if i go into the lift yang rosak or whatever tau. Thank Him, this is a hosp.
Nak pesan kalau naik lif, ladies please amik belah yang sebelah tu nombor nombor tingkat. Kalau mall normally ada kat dua dua belah. Ni in case yang nombor dia ada kat satu belah je. Duduk belah tu ye.
Why?
Akibat begitu takut sebentar tadi aku mula memikirkan benda benda yang tak elok. So this is what has gotten into my mind KALAU bangla tu duduk sebelah nombor tadi..
Nak tekan nombor cemana? Eh dalam ketakutan macam tu, kalau bangla tu duduk sebelah nombor tadi takde maknanya aku nak pergi sebelah dia jugak nak tekan nombor tau. Nak dekat dengan dia ya Tuhan mintak simpang! Fuh, Allah helped me by putting me kat belah button button tersebut.
And katakan dia duk sebelah button, dah la menyukarkan kita nak tekan nombor ni ha, kalau dia jahat ke kalau dia memain dengan button tu cemana? Kan ada button tutup lif kan. Tahu kan? Kalau dia tekan je button tu cemana? Lif takkan terbukak.
Okay thinking abt this buat aku seram lagi je.
Peh nampak tak otak aku ligat berfikir dalam lif tu? 15 saat je kot dalam lif tu.
That 15 secs was the scarriest 15 secs in my whole life.
Terus tak solat kat surau atas dah unless ada org teman. Ni pun, solat dalam wad je. Beralaskan kertas? Haha
Be always careful!
Cheerios.